Thursday, August 31, 2006

I thought It was about time I make one and only one more post on my behalf of all this nonsense because that is exactly what it is all nonsense..we have all had alot of disagreements and because of course they are the ones out to be nice guys they will be right regardless well I wish I would of never fell for that crap because now my life is more screwed up than ever before...all this money was raised to help me start a new life a better one everyone kept saying but I went along with it and it turns out every time I think maybe I shouldn't it turns out I shouldn't have I could of left porn and everything else without them and been in the same place I am in now so what was the point well actually I would of prolly been better off..it has done nothing but cause me to owe out alot of money and cant seem to get caught up it has me in a place I have no one or anything and it has cost me my marriage and I am sick to death of all this being put on my husband like it is all his fault it is about time everyone be held accountable for what they have caused the only good thing that has came out of any of this is my daughter is now in a school where she can get the help and tutoring she needs for her speech so that next year she will be caught up to where she needs to be but that is it..I think thats these guys idea of the project was a good idea but they have went about it all wrong and hope no other girl gets caught up in it.you know that what bothers me is xxxchurch number one thing they work for is to help people with there porn addiction...well we all know my husband has a big problem with it and how have they helped him they told him in a email to grow and just quit looking at it oh yeah and that he was a complete idiot exact words yeah that is really helping someone but no they seem to what to make all this about fighting with him and making it his fault that they couldn't do what they sought out to do. there idea to help me is go to church now yeah I should prolly go to church but in all reality that isn't fixing my problems now with money a place to live or the therapist I need now that I have went through all this. my husband is now completely done with the church and believing in anything that he has believed most of his life but then again he seems to be pretty much done with anyone involved in this situation including me he has stopped trying with us because the trying and work we both have been doing seems to get cut off every turn we make so that is how this has all helped but I think that is about it I just wanted my thoughts heard oh and I really hope people aren't spending the money on the video above or any other money for the trinity project because there is no trinity project and the money is just going to fill a pocket that doesn't need any help if you have any questions feel free to email me I check it frequently. oh and by the way I will be posting the whole story with all emails and everything to all the adult sites so that no one else gets fooled

3 Comments:

Blogger Adam Clarke said...

I only hope that time and perspective will show you a greater picture of what is happening to you. I hope that you will be able to truly look at where porn was taking you and where this road is taking you and can see that through the hard times the end result will be a much more fulfilling life not only for you but also your daughter. I am praying for you.

2:41 PM  
Blogger Dave said...

Wow. So, some things have changed for you guys... and for the worst? That sucks... And yeah, being a pastor - even I know how bad it hurts when the church "fails you" -- or better yet, the good intentions of well-meaning Christians. It's tough, and it always hurts when trust breaks down. One of the things I have to remember is that Christians are not God. :) They are as imperfect as all of us.

What can (specifically) be done to help you guys right now? I don't know if you have the time, but shoot me an e-mail: DCCowan@gmail.com

Thanks...

5:24 AM  
Blogger Tina B said...

Michelle,

I am going to be honest with you I have met you in perso a couple of times and had NO idea of your past but I loved your attitude, your kindness, and sense of humor.

Now to the reason I am writing you I was sent you blog when my husband and I were having problems. He is addicted to porn and REFUSES to admit to it. He hides it from me and has no desire to be with me because he choose the movies over me. This hurts. I was searching for anyone and everyone to blame. Yes that even meant the people making the movies in my eyes they were all bad. I just want to say I am sorry even though I never said these things to you personally I feel guilty because I felt this way but after reading your website and meeting you in person you are not to blame you were trying to make a living and some one made it look simple for you. Keep your head up. I started going to church this year and they help, but prayer is the number one answer. I will keep you and your family in your prayers and I hope that you and your husband have worked things out. I have heard two different stories so not realsure. But God Bless you for coming forth because it helps woman like me.

8:37 PM  

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